Someone that I care about asked me today (or technically yesterday since it is 1:13am) if I knew who I was without work or caring for other people. It made me think. Is there something wrong? Do I not know who I am? Do I care too much?
I didn't respond immediately.
The answer to the question is no, I don't know who i am without work or without caring for other people because without that care, I'm not who I am. Caring and a deep desire to have an impact, to make a difference....those are at my core. I believe in respect. I believe in justice. I believe in love. I believe that love and care are the pathways to true justice. I don't stand for anything if I don't stand for that.
Is caring painful sometimes? Absolutely. Do I sometimes feel tired? Absolutely.
Regardless, I wouldn't have it any other way.
Do I need to sometimes figure out how to not get taken advantage of because I care so much about some things? Absolutely. But I know where my lines are. I know how I should be treated. I know what I believe to be right.
There are too many people in the world these days trying to tell me that I care too much. Wondering about why I stay at my job when so many people seem to be jumping ship. It is because I believe that the work I do truly makes a difference.
Do I sometimes lose sight of that belief? Absolutely. Do I sometimes struggle with the individual politics and petty mindgames of others? ABSOLUTELY.
But I find I don't struggle long because I know what I stand for. I care about people. I work from the heart.
Some may see it as a flaw but I think it is one of my greatest strengths.
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